How Our Broken Heat Pump Lead To My Summer of Surrender
I promise you that this connects to an incredible manifestation so please stick with me here!
It was several weeks ago when my husband and I noticed how hot our downstairs felt. We live in Virginia and up until very recently we have been having lovely Spring weather with no need for air conditioning. So we had no idea that anything was wrong with our system. Then all of a sudden, it was 95 degrees outside and we needed that air conditioning. Welcome to the south!
I remember saying to him one day, "it feels muggy down here, is the air on?"
And he said to me, "it is on."
Oh.
Over the next few days we had several HVAC companies come out to our home to check the unit. When I say it was an ordeal. It was SUCH an ordeal. Everything about it got me "worked up." I was not in a good energy about the whole thing.
The companies were late or unprofessional or just plain rude. They only spoke to my husband (don't get me started on that!) They all let us know how horrible our current system was. As a side note, we only moved into our house two years ago, so as of the time of this blog post, this is our second summer in our home. We had nothing to do with purchasing the current unit! The previous home owners picked the system!
Unfortunately, the one point that all of the workmen agreed on. We needed a whole new system.
We got quotes from 5 different companies and they ranged in price, but it was all hovering around the $8,000 price point.
Here is the truth on how I handled that.
Not well.
I started crying. I freaked out. I panicked. I had racing thoughts about not being able to afford this. It was too much. How can we still go on vacation when we now have to pay for this?
Snow ball thoughts. They were cascading out of me! What in the actual F was happening. I teach on this stuff. I teach money mindset, my money mindset is solid. WHERE was this coming from.
I'll tell you where. My Ego. That lovely lack money mindset was coming in loud and clear from my Ego, it came up for the party and it was bringing all the fun with it.
As a quick side note, I have done a lot of work on my own money mindset. In fact all of last year I really worked on it, reprogrammed it, and I felt at the time that I had healed SO MUCH. So I was genuinely surprised that I was reacting this way.
Up until the heat pump incident, I felt abundance everyday. I felt better about money, I no longer panicked around money. I spend and saved and attracted money freely. I knew in my soul money it is unlimited and it will flow to me constantly. I KNEW This. So, why was I freaking out about a 8K heat pump replacement?
Here's what I can say now, now that the situation has resolved itself.
I had healed so much of my money mindset, but as I have continued to grow and develop and up level as a person and in my life, this came up again as a way to show me that I needed to heal it in this way too.
At the time of this blog post, I am currently manifesting a BIG money goal for my business. As well as some big time exposure for my TV Show.
Here's what was going on.
The Universe was holding my hand and saying to me, " OK! Allison, here we go. As someone who has won an Emmy for your show and is making millions of dollars with your Media Brand, you are the type of person who will easily pay for things that need to be fixed without worry or fear. Are you ready to practice?"
I said back to her, "But I am SCARED. I AM FEARFUL. 8K is a lot of money. WHAT DO I DO?!"
And she squeezed my hand back and said, "I know. But trust me."
So, after a week of freaking out and panicking and doing it my way, I was ready for trying it her way. That's what I decided to do. I did just that. I surrendered and I trusted.
Sure, I had a big cry about it. I told my husband that I was scared but I knew it needed to be fixed and that he should call back one of the companies that we liked the best to fix the heat pump.
He agreed that he wasn't thrilled about spending the money either, but we both knew it was the right thing to do. This was on a Friday. My husband planned to call on Monday to schedule it.
In manifestation terms, we surrendered. We let go. We allowed the Universe to do this for us so that we could have a cool, safe home for our family. We knew investing in this way was safe. We trusted. We let it go. We let go out all control.
And do you know what happened?!
The NEXY DAY after we decided to just go ahead and call, on Saturday, another company called my husband. This was a company, was highly recommend, but was unable to come out that week due to high demand. He called us on a Saturday morning to say, "I can come out today and take a look if you would like?" He was at our house 30 minutes later.
And do you know what the amazing, glorious, angel of a man did?
He repaired our heat pump. For $250.00
NONE of the other companies even suggesting repairing as an option. They ALL said to replace. Replace the whole freaking system.
This man. Easily repaired the system. For obviously a fraction of the cost.
I hope you can see that this whole thing is not about the cost. Not at all.
This isn't about the money at all. It was never about the money. It was always about the trusting and the surrendering.
This beautiful moment came to me when I needed it most. To remind me to trust.
And while I was in the moment, sure, I know that I didn't handle it with the BEST mindset. I was upset and frantic. I still have some room to grow there.
But, I want you to hear me loud and clear. That is OK. It's ok, I didn't mess anything up.
Because I still got there. I still trusted enough to surrender. And next time, I will remember this story and I will trust more. I will trust sooner. I will surrender sooner.
That is how all of this works.
We decide we want to manifest something and then we must trust and allow the Universe to bring it to us.
If we don't let go, then how can she bring it to us?!
I wanted to manifest big goals for my business and TV show. She wanted to show me that in order to be the person who has those things, I needed to handle the heat pump in a different way. It was like she wanted to train me now with this so that I can handle what's to come.
Trust me, I know surrendering is scary.
I know it's not easy.
But it's necessary.
And what comes from it, on the other side is so beautiful. And so worth a few moments of uncertainty. I promise you.
So, where am I now? Well, I am currently writing this blog post to you from a nice cool home with a perfectly working air conditioning unit. And I feel really damn good about the whole damn thing.
This gift was given to me and I want to share this story with you.
Perhaps you are in a freak out moment or your own. Perhaps you are scared shitless and unsure of what to do next.
Here's what I would encourage you to do. Take a deep breath and ask the Universe for some help. Ask for a sign. Have a conversation. Let her know you are scared, she is there to help you. She will hold your hand too. I promise.
And then when you are ready. Let that thing go. Let that fear, that worry about money, that anxiety about the unknown GO. Surrender it.
And it is ok to take the fear along with you for the ride if you need to. You don't have to shame yourself for feeling fear, that's natural and normal. I know I felt massive fear. Just invite it along but let it know that you are trusting and surrendering anyway.
Today is May 30, 2021 and I am committing to what I am calling my SUMMER OF SURRENDER! Will you join me?
We are going to surrender anything that gets us worked up. Or panicked. Or worried or fearful. We are going to trust and surrender and let go.
I am only going to be following my joy this summer. Listening to my heart and my body and only doing what lights me up. That's how I will surrender.
Will you join me? Let's see what magic we can create by letting everything else go this summer. ✨
Comment below and let me know you are along for the ride. Let's create some magic!
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